Tulpamancy Journal. 212

Not much change. No contact. Have been dreaming, vivid and alive dreams, without the slightest sign of tulpa. Meditations have been the same, and my rituals have been non-productive. I have increased my forcing’s and narrations, and I am able to redefine a lot of my brain’s racket, as tulpish communication. It is not satisfactory, nor produces any tulpa-heralding emotion. However, I continue. Of note, I have been in a great deal of physical pain from my back, and been ordered to my bed. (I can lie flat, stand or walk, No sitting or bending) Perhaps Flora has better sense than to want to come forth into this body!

2 Responses to “Tulpamancy Journal. 212”

  1. Michael Steele Says:

    Hey Bob,

    Sorry to hear about your recent pain and low mood. I hope things improve quickly.

    My sister finally decided to refuse any more life-extending treatment, so without dialysis, her body could start shutting down any time. The last straw was last week, when her incessant itching was finally diagnosed as “crusted scabies.” A nurse said it was the worst case she’d ever seen. Laura says she wishes “they could just put me down–like a dog.”

    So I’ll be out there from 5/8 to 5/13. Let me know if you’re feeling up to a short visit.

    Michael

    On Fri, Apr 30, 2021 at 9:29 AM Theholodoc’s Blog wrote:

    > theholodoc posted: ” Not much change. No contact. Have been dreaming, > vivid and alive dreams, without the slightest sign of tulpa. Meditations > have been the same, and my rituals have been non-productive. I have > increased by forcing’s and narrations, and I am able to redefine” >

    • theholodoc Says:

      Hi Michael. I am sorry to hear about your sister, and I trust that her decision reflects her true will. Oh, and my mood is great. Body not so great. But, I have a hot tub and the sun is shining, I was able to water my garden, Nancy and I are doing well. Hope to see you when you visit. Call me, I return from retreat on the eighth. Love, Bob

critiques welcome. Dr. Robert

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s