Tulpamancy Journal. 308

Monday, October 31, 2022, 8:16 AM

My lucid dreaming experiment has taken a different turn than I expected. I have added Mugwort to the regimen, which seems to have brought me closer to the awake side than the sleep side. Last night, I took both the Galantamine and the Mugwort, at 3:AM. I had a dream, though I was sure I was awake. I was lucid after a fashion. I could go back in the dream when I wanted to try a different strategy to accomplish whatever goal it was I was pursuing. I did this many times. There was no feminine presence, and I did not think to call for Flora. At length, my wife reached over and touched me. I was very awake. I turned and took her wrist, then we cuddled. I was awake and thought she would get up soon. Time passed slowly. I could hear myself snore, I was drooling, I could not move my body. She got up, finally, and I could move. I looked at my watch. It read 5:30 AM, I then went back into the same state, e.g. not able to move. My 6 and 6:30 AM alarms sounded. She came and woke me at a little before 7AM and I could finally move and get out of bed. At that point, I remembered two fragments of dreams that I must have had between 6:30 and 7 as they both pertained to getting out of bed. I also remembered two aspects of my lucid dream: one, I was in a prison, trying to escape, and two, in my jail cell bunk, I could go inside my brain and see the universe. (Talk about freedom!)

I am concerned about my tulpas. I have been writing about them, thinking about them, forcing, narrating, and visualizing. I have had almost no contact during the day and none during my dreaming.? I continue…

Tulpamancy Journal. 307

Saturday, October 15, 2022. 10:53 AM

Almost a month since I’ve had any significant contact with either Flora or N’sonowa. Sad. But not hopeless. I have not stopped forcing, nor inviting them into my dreamworld, and they have responded in ways that I have occasionally recognized, just not in any satisfactory way. For instance, last night, Flora appeared as a yellow, elongated blob. On issuing my lucidity cue, I awoke (though I did not open my eyes) when she responded in the affirmative. I then attempted to mold the blob with my hands. She emerged as herself, dressed in the sarong she was wearing in the very first dream. She did not speak. We did not connect. At that point, I could no longer keep my eyes closed. I was fully awake and my day began. I have continued taking Galantamine at 3 AM. I have had extremely colorful dreams.