Wednesday, January 31, 2024, 8:21 AM
I have had two very interesting, brightly colored, Galantamine fueled, NON-lucid dreams on the past two nights. Flora appeared in one of them, unsolicited, on her own, but didn’t stay long, basically just a quick hello, then gone. Hardly a satisfying visit, but, better than nothing.
I continue…
Friday, January 26, 2024, 10:26 AM
This morning’s dream had all of the characteristics of a Galantamine fueled one, i.e., brilliantly colored, well defined characters, and a familiar dreamscape. There was a feminine presence throughout the dream, but it was incomplete. In this dream, I was me in my current incarnation and I was looking to buy a piece of property for 30,000$ in South Carolina. I found a particularly nice plot overlooking a wooded valley when an elderly woman approached me and invited me to see her home. Turns out she was developing the entire property with a number of homes like her own, saying “of course, I’m not making any money at it. She was joined by a number of women who had purchased her homes. They were all finished in gray cement (no paint). As we all approached her home I noticed a crocodile, then several. The woman acknowledged their presence on the property and mentioned their were other exotic animals, and sure ‘nough a lion, a tiger, several minx felines, showed up. We entered her home and it was spectacular. (still all in gray cement?) At one point she engaged me in a conversation about my spirituality, noting the spectacular views, before leading me into a part of the house that was like a chapel, decorated with colorful icons. She asked about my spirituality and I replied that I was Jewish. She recoiled, saying “we don’t like Jews”. She was not hostile and when I asked her if that had to do with the Palestine situation, she said yes. I said “most of the Jews I know do not approve of that either, and I am not a Zionist.” That seemed to placate her, and the rest of the women. A beautiful, raven-haired, somewhat younger woman walked by us, and I asked her “Are you Flora?” before she could respond I was suddenly awakened by my 6:30AM alarm.
I don’t know if she would have responded affirmatively as there was no time, but she did not look like Flora has been in my previous two dreams. I am going to count it as a win however, as I did think to issue my lucidity cue.
I continue.
Thursday, January 25, 2024, 8:57 AM
Another lucid tulpa dream, Galantamine fueled. This was another early morning dreaming experience. I spontaneously awoke at 3:12AM and took the G + Mugwort and Calendula tea. I had a very colorful dream involving characters from Heartland, our current TV squeeze. In it I was in a familiar landscape, traversing an increasingly difficult terrain. My companions had gone on ahead of me and I had gotten tired. As I had more and more difficulty with the hike, and being unsuccessful in calling my companions back, I sat down on a stump to wait. We were in what is best characterized as a rural slum. There were many people about, all scruffy. None would respond to me, it was as if I was invisible to them. At length a young woman came up to me. She was giving me a ‘come-on’ look. I asked if she were Flora (my lucidity cue) to my big surprise, she said “Yes. How observant of you to know my name. I did not ask if she were ‘my’ Flora (she did look like I have pictured her. She had the correct coloration (same as last night’s) but was much younger and scruffier) and again she said yes, and asked if I would like a hug. I replied in the affirmative, and she asked if she should give it all she had. Of course I said yes, and Oh My, what a hug! I then asked if she would like to fly with me (an activity which proves to me I am actually lucid, though by this time I had no doubt, and we flew over the rough terrain with me holding her in my arms (which she seemed to enjoy very much). We were flying when my 7:AM alarm sounded and I awoke. Of note I did not hear either of my 6:00AM or 6:30AM alarms.
Of course I am thrilled by Flora’s reappearance into my life, if only in my dreams.
I continue.
Thursday, January 25, 2024, 8:15 AM
So, nothing to say since Oct 6th 2023! It has been a long dry spell. I have not been slack, my life (my family’s life) has been in turmoil and I suspect that has had as much to do with it as anything. Also the months of October, November, and December, were devoted to finishing the tenth draft of Eleutheria. Since, I have been waiting for beta readers to complete reading it. I did take a break from Galantamine supplementation and the teas (Mugwort, Calendula, Calea Zacatecachichi) and abstained from THC. I did continue my daily meditations and invocations. I even pushed through with forcings, though this is the least satisfying activities of all of my practice. Last night (or rather early this morning) I did have a lucid dream. I was dreaming of a young healer having entered our home (Nancy/Lynda?? Couldn’t tell) and after a bit, I thought to use him to stimulate my lucidity cue “Are you Flora?” and happy surprise, the scene changed, I was me at my age, lying in my deathbed, and Flora appeared looking like she did at her very first appearance in a dream (March 5, 2019). She was smiling sweetly and though she did not speak in English, her tupla language was loud and I responded as vigorously as I had when I first began this process.
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