Friday, March 31, 2023, 8:01 AM
Been awhile since I’ve had a coherent dream so last night was welcome. (Yes, with Galantamine) The First part of it had a familiar theme, I was traversing wooded hilly terrain. I was alone though there were many other people in the woods, mostly laughing and in a light-hearted mood. At times I would encounter some of them on the trail, though I did not interact with them. I was hiking slowly. The terrain became very difficult with steep and crumbly slopes. At one point I poked my head up over an edge and could see palm trees and an expanse of green grass. I couldn’t quite get to it. At another point, I came upon a river, which I couldn’t cross, though I could wade across some tributaries making a delta. I finally came upon an ancient site which included temple like buildings of smoothed sandstone in a variety of colors, yellow, orange, red, and brown. It was beautiful and I wanted to get to it, but could not. I did get up onto a platform adjacent to it. I noticed the varnish covering the wood planks of the platform was bubbled in a toroidal shape. In the center was a red plastic reflector. A friendly and handsome young man came up to me and wanted to know about it (I had the feeling he just wanted to talk with me) I explained how the bubbling had happened in the varnish. He walked off and I, in lucidity, began to fly. I flew over him then went hurtling high into the air. I was approaching a thickly wooded forest and I thought, I am not going to control this and I let myself fall. I felt immediately free as I went crashing through the forest. I was being scratched and then gouged by branches. I was pretty torn up and bleeding when I emerged from the forest. I did not feel pain however. I flew high into a very blue sky, so high the earth had receded into a dot. There was a very bright light and I heard a voice ask, “Now do you believe in me?” I answered it with, “No, it didn’t take a god to hurt me like this!” I then flew back down to those beautiful buildings I had previously seen. They were a university. I was walking in a hallway when a gorgeous black-skinned Indian woman came up to me. Her eyes were sparkling shiny and she embraced me. She told me her name (Kumar) and began to kiss me. Our kisses were passionate, sensual beyond anything I have experienced in years. She was writhing in a tight embrace and I became aroused. She steered us to a couch in a student lounge. There were many other students around, they were not interested in our activities. As we kissed Kumar pulled her skirt up, she was without undergarments, and caressed me with her lady parts. I told her that I regarded sex as a pathway to the divine, and that with enough passion, our cells would dissolve in light and we would go home. She was turned on by my talk and I reached down and touched her Mons of Venus. She winced, I asked her what was wrong. She said, “I wish Steve were here”. I said, “Let him come, and called out ‘Steve'” A young man with dyed hair appeared, he smiled and said something, then left. Another young man appeared and laid down next to us and the three of us made love. I awakened when we all got off, and no, we did not get ‘home’, but, I was, for the first time in weeks, wide awake and felt strong. I reported the dream to Nancy, She laughed noted that I had torn up the bedclothes, then, commented on her own condition, tied to the ground, flat on her back. (She is still in pain from a back injury three weeks ago). As I told her about Kuman, the insight flashed, Kumar, with a K, was a stand in for KK and Steve was Stan.
I have to think that when I released my fear and allowed myself to crash into the woods, that I opened the channel for my tulpa to appear.